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Friday, October 08, 2004
~ 10/08/2004 11:19:00 pm ~
my nightmare from the past is back again to haunt me... i am trying to control myself but i can't.... i am trying very hard not to hurt myself and don stress myself up by thinking so much about it..... but the fear have already take over me mentally and physically.... i am scared of the feeling of being left alone... now i am really scared when i am alone in the dark... i feel that no one acompany me to go through the darkest moment in my live.... when i am alone in the dark i feel like i will be kill or dump aside... i try to cut myself so that the pain can let me stop thinking about those scary stuff but it is not enough.... when i am studying at night... i try listening to music but i still cannot control my fear ... i cried... when i am alone my heart tells me that everyone despise me everyone in the world look down on me... i always think that they are talking about me behind my back... everyone is looking at me seeing how i fall... i don know why... i just feel lonely..... this kind of feeling is wat i feel once in my primary school daysit is coming back again... i feel that around me there is a lot of people don like me....

about me


* 在黑夜里翱翔的羽翼 带来的是黑暗还是希望... *
* Chua Rui Ping Jasline *
* 07th October 1988 *
* Libra * Dragon *
* krimainax@hotmail.com *
* Favourites... *
* dancing * listening to music *
* chatting with friends *
* watching movie/t.v. program/anime *
* all shades of blue *
* making music * reading comics *
* Hates... *
* sadness * loneliness * dull colours *
* whoever badmouth my friends *
* History... *
* Ai Tong Primary School *
* Peirce Secondary School *
* Nanyang Polytechnic *
* Multimedia and infocomm tech *


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