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2007-06-01T15:49:00.001+08:00

back i schoool for a week le...one word bored...nothing much to do in my project. so is like so sian...AH!!!!! BORED!!!!

2007-05-21T17:52:00.000+08:00

last week of attachment...don know to happy or sad...i got quite a tough job...sometimes i need to stay till quite late to finish my stuff up...i remember staying till about 11pm plus to finish up the website thingie for the company...also till 10pm plus to fine tune his portfolio for presntation the next day..9pm plus to finish up his mock up for client...even though working hours are from 09 30

2007-05-17T14:22:00.000+08:00

7 more working days to go to end of attachment...excited to see all of you peeps in school again...but before that the time will pass slowly..haix...missing someone a lot lately...haix....wish to have that someone is by my side everyday...i miss the days of having you peeps too...haix... hope this days can go faster maybe 10 hours faster..that would be so great...hahah...miss you dar... xiao gou.

2007-05-04T16:48:00.000+08:00

it is about two months since the start of my attachment..three weeks more to go...then next up is my fyphope that it is not that difficult.. hee..heemy mum and dad is annoyyed by the new modem issue.yep re-contracted my broadband to 10mbp but the modem is down since the being..till now it is not fix yethaix.. no internet for a week le.. from last weekthinking of changing the layout of my blog

2007-04-11T14:31:00.000+08:00

it have been a long time since i am here.with new ideas i want to start afresh.i felt different nowadaysto me now my life is in a fogcannot find my way through yettrying.. but not yet there...slowly i see the moon but it is just a small cornerhaix hope i will see my full moon soon..

2006-12-15T21:18:00.000+08:00

omenious day... Maths common test... spoiler.... hahaha... the paper is quite difficult to me i don really get what the question ask for.. i did not prepare well haix.. i need to study harder liao... hmmm.. wrong study cannot harder it is not a thing... diaoz... we have one big sun today.. melting everyone... very warm... can smell burning of skin le... hee hee.. still wear black today.. wrong

2006-12-14T19:12:00.000+08:00

Eragon is quite a nice movie went to watch it today... Nice graphics... nice scenery... actor/actress...hmmm... handsome and pretty... every part of the movie make me feel "beautiful" don really know how to describe it... nice moviea few more movie coming soon... like Harry Potter and Death Note... be sure to catch them before they pooff and disappear... hee hee

2006-12-02T23:52:00.000+08:00

weird things do happen from tme to time... like today i was taking a bus home from PS then when i board the bus this weird uncle keep staring at me then talk to himself or me? i don know don get it... den two guys(boys i think they are younger then me) sitting at my side (double decker bus with vertical sits? the back row) they keep asking question(quiz) to each other then i fell like i was a

2006-11-09T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today is quite a good day except that comes when i am heading back home. hee hee. tell you all a secret... i did something bad with my friends today... hah ha nothing big.. it is just that we were playing VOS in our elective tutorial lesson when the lecturer is teaching us... hee hee...VOS is like O2Jam but an offline version and a bit more difficult.hee hee found one of the tortise today...

2006-11-06T23:15:00.001+08:00

Today, only description : Bad luck! i knocked onto the edge of the table early in the morning and fall on the floor cause my leg is wet... haix... almost sprain my leg while walking to the bus stop to take bus to school. i only can say bad things comes in pair. feel sleepy i think i burn too much midnight oil lately especially yesterday to finish up the report.yawns....brother's tortises still

2006-10-31T07:58:00.000+08:00

Happy 13th Birthday Brother!!!!!! & Happy Halloween to all peeps!!!!!!

2006-09-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

Recently i have read a book and i found a very meaningful portion. I typed it out below:早在很久以前... 我就知道了...其实每个人都是一生下来就拥有自己的翅膀...只要提起一点点的勇气，张开自己的翅膀...其实那时候我也可以跟着他一起飞的...但是我却没有起飞...从头到尾我都没有飞起来过...因为那时候的我并没有遇到像这样的[风]... 我从很久以前...就一直有个疑问...神啊!为什么您...这么样的不公平?这么样的残酷?为什么要让生于世上的人类...分成有翅膀和没有翅膀的呢?为什么世界只有一个...您却故意把人分成两种... 我...错了!其实每个人都是...从一出生便拥有翅膀的!为什么我以前从来就没有发现呢?不是有些人不会飞!而是只有想飞的人...只有认为自己会飞的人，才飞得起来其实我也是

2006-08-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

Change of hairstyle..... LOL... looks weird now.... Hahahahah.... from straight hair to curled hair.... lol... i cut my fringe too... haix... crys.. now i don know what am i suppose to do with it now.... sob sob :(lets see...:) tomorrow is shawn's turn... i really wanna see how her hair will become... hee hee :) lol

2006-08-12T21:55:00.000+08:00

Me? Actually i don't have much friends. Friends?me? I think i only have one... I don't like to talk much only with her i think. I think that is why i do not have lots of friends. Actually I can only talk comfortably with those i know for quite some time. I don't like places with a lot of people unless i am going with people i know or else i would rather chose to be at home or some quieter places.

2006-08-11T22:52:00.000+08:00

The only one that ever walk into my world is Shawn. She is the only one who can really understand me. Maybe that is why i can only open up to her.

2006-08-11T22:42:00.000+08:00

I am living in my own world by myself from my memory first started. Noboby actually understand me well. I am alway in my own world nobody can come in and me myself cannot walk out. The only person that ever walk in i think there is only one person. So i am always very lonely. When i stare blankly into the air, i am actually in my own world hiding in one corner. To be trueful i actually enjoy

2006-06-14T11:52:00.000+08:00

Intresting day... hee hee... help Shawn in the evening for her video project hahahah... me and my sister when down to SP to become her "actress" hee hee.... Shawn is the ghost of the day.... even though it is quite a tiring day but it is fun helping her... i learn quite some stuff today filming is not easy as i think it is... dealing with th lighting , shadows and different angle is quite some

2006-05-25T00:54:00.000+08:00

today is sure a bad day.... haiz... my scores are fluctuating alot haiz... i am back with my 103 score again for the first 36 arrows haix.... second 36 arrows only a bit better 126 pts.... bad plus poor scoring..... i think i really need to bang on wall liao....shawn don just say must put everything in to action so that you will not regret... ok... also don let your "boyfriend" of yours spolit

2006-05-22T21:36:00.000+08:00

bla bla bla bla bla... hearing nagging everyday i also sian liao... mum favouritism shows more veryday.. everything that is wrong is me and my sis my berother did nothing wrong... dot... so haiz.... this is so unfair... crys... my brother can get what he want just by speaking out but us... haiz... we only gots words saying that it is a waste of money what the.... haiz...

2006-05-20T22:53:00.000+08:00

when to collect a new sim card today... but stll cannot recall where i misplace my phone... still feeling down... today's practice make me feel a bit better i think... my score on wednesday was 103(very poor) today hee hee.. i gt 206(haha) double the score on wednesday and also above 180 hee hee no punishment for me today no need to do pumping... hahas... all those who did not reach 180 in 6 ends

2006-05-19T23:56:00.000+08:00

Night class today.. as taunting as ever... dry and dull lesson today... still cannot locate where my phone is... still feeling down without my phone...haiz... when can i find my phone... i don think i wil be able to find it...i have a strong feeling about it... today i am still listen to mu's plus my dad's nagging about me losing my phone... i want to get new phone soon... haiz this is nearly

2006-05-18T23:57:00.000+08:00

lost my handphone today... i cannot recall how i lost it that is the worst part... i looked around but still wasn't be able to locate it... so i gave up looking and went to help shawn in her BM test at SP. Being the "victim" is a little... how to sad... weird...i think so... in the end there is no in water test for shawn.... haiz... going down to help her again nxt tuesday... reach home quite

2006-05-06T01:14:00.000+08:00

Yeah.... bought the cd.... gt a few more nice songs too... hee hee happy happy....Melvin congrats..... remember to invite us to your wedding dinner soon.... hee hee jk jk jk....today's dinner is really HEAVY!!! me and shawn ate at Oishi Pizza near her place we ordered a combo.... the set have a medium pizza... we eat until so bloated in the end we need to take away... it taste ok...ya by the way

2006-05-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

found a nice sound today... it is from <<终极一班>> the ost... it is the ending theme for the show... it is by tank the song tittle is <<给我你的爱>> the lyrics is also quite good....歌曲：给我你的爱歌手：tank 专辑：终极一班OST 词:颜玺轩曲:tank 编曲:吕绍淳等待一点一滴你对我感到安心感觉朋友关系有了新的默契便利商店里谁也买不到我们最想要的东西只握在喜欢的人手上给我你的爱让我陪着你去未来给我你的爱手拉着手不放开就算宇宙爆炸海水都蒸发只愿你的记忆里有我的拥抱我的最大幸褔是发现了我爱你灵魂有了意义用每一天珍惜便利商店里

2006-05-03T11:08:00.000+08:00

today not that bad... only one arrow flew away from the board... at least can see some result... not like last saturday all don know fly where.... some even hit onto the wooden strip below the board... some don even reach the board haiz... today can see even grouping... good good... happy... went to Tampines to have my dinner... i had a plate of pasta at Han's. then i bought cakes at sweet

2006-05-02T22:31:00.000+08:00

just finish watching <终极一班> although it is just part one... but it is damn funny.... i just can't stop laughing.... it is a die hard must watch show.... the weapon they use... oh gosh... a pan and a knife that is still stuck to a stone... lame....The stall owner also damn funny... can cook anything you just need to name it... 珍珠奶茶 become 珍珠(a dog name)'s milk the tea.... oh my god.... one of them

2006-04-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

haiz.. woke up at ten today... was so late for training so i decided not to go instead... after awhile Shawn called me up instead... She came to my house sitted awhile then we (Shawn, me & my sister) when to Bedok ... She went there to but her Shampoo and conditioner.. i started raining cats and dogs... we were trapped... actually we decided to buy an umbrella... chose the colour then decided to

2006-04-28T22:58:00.000+08:00

today is such a cold day....ended lesson at 20 30 today... tired.... *yawns*today's lesson is as usually dry and dull..my right eye still blur as ever.... hope i could change my contact lens soon.....my specs haiz.... broke can't wear them now... must wait till i have the time to have them change with new lens....reach home quite late today... haiz... and now i am here typing this... hee hee..

2006-04-27T22:27:00.000+08:00

only one word tired......started school one week ago....now already exhausted....argh....SHAWN !!! I NEED A WARM BATH IN THE TUB SOON!!!!!!reply to my invitation ok?i bursting soon....

2006-02-28T00:05:00.000+08:00

who am i ? i don't really know myself anymore.... everyone i trying to change me into what they want me to be... why can't i be myself... i really one a person who can know my existence from what i am not what i will become... i am not a doll or a puppet there is things i like and things that i despites... please i just wanna be myself....!!!!!!

2006-02-27T19:43:00.000+08:00

maths the past Multimedia com the near ahead.....i feel lost nowadays this feeling is so detestable yet it is so in close proximity to me... i am gonna burst soon ... this revolting feeling is overwhelming.... i can't take it anymore... why is everyone doing this to me... am i getting praniold? i don't know? everyone i just telling me i am wrong.... the thing you are doing is wrong... when am i

2005-12-17T21:55:00.000+08:00

went back to my previous house there to have my hair trim... actually it just take awhile but instead it took us about five hours i think.... waited for my aunt's friend to have her hair rebond.... it is such a daunting time... almost doze off....watch animal planet to stop the boredom... they were talking about sea snakes... they are very poisonous.. dangerous... the place where they went is

2005-12-16T22:54:00.000+08:00

Today went out early i n the morning to buy my brother art material... he is gonna learn wat it is call "chalk drawing" i think need to buy stuff... expansive sia... the paper cost 30 bucks and the 24 pieces chalk cost 28 bucks... hee hee... my mum ask me and my sis to continue our art lesson too... but it will be on Saturday morning.... still considering goin anot....bought three cardigan and

2005-12-13T21:08:00.000+08:00

Oh My God!!!Totally clueless today... Starting from Java Programming my mind was totally blank...Just stare blankly into the com screen during lab last week also like tat... am i losing my touch on it.... couldn't finish lab excerise from last week.... this week too... sianNot in a good mood..... angry with me myself.... couldn't do anything right today.... can i?Today just went totally wrong....

2005-12-06T19:44:00.000+08:00

card of the day : Participation (4 of Fire)deck : Osho Zen Tarotreading : you have an opportunity to participate with others now to make your contribution to creating something greater and more beautiful than each of you could manage alone.Your nourish you, but will also contribute something precious to the whole.Today also woke up late.... how come everyday also like that.... becoz i woke up

2005-12-05T23:57:00.000+08:00

card of the day : Trust (Knight of water)deck : Osho Zen Tarotreading :This card signified what waits for us at the end.... something we awaits for?.....Today wake up at 8+ Oh My God!!!!! late late late.....Too late for Japanese lesson today... so just skip it instead....First day of the week late... sian....learn flash today quite difficult to understand but when ending finally got it liao....

2005-12-04T10:45:00.000+08:00

rules of the game:1) post 5 weird/random stuff about yourself.2) At the end, list the names of 5 people who you want next to this and leave a comment "YOU ARE TAGGED" in their blog and tell them to read your blog for rules.---------------------------------------------------------------------5 weird/random stuffs about me:1. I can shut off myself suddenly anytime anywhere.2. I can sit in a corner

2005-12-03T21:53:00.000+08:00

card of the day : The Creator ( King of Fire )deck : Oshso Zen Tarotreading : It tell us that anything that we under take now, will bring enrichment to our own lives and to the lives and the lives of others.Using watever skill you have learned from your own life experience, it is time to express yourself.Feeling awful today.... Ate too much the day before... hee heewake up today and started maple

2005-12-02T22:09:00.000+08:00

card of the day : Healing (King of water)deck : Osho Zen Tarotreading : we are no longer hiding from ourselves or others.In this attiude of openess and accepance we can be healed, and help others also to be healthy and whole.Wake up at 10 in the morning....Went to AMK... Ate lunch with the prince (hee hee!!!) wee! he ate a bowl of lor mee and chicken chop (that is a hell lot...) oops... hee hee

2005-12-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

card of the day : Consciousness ( Ace of Cloud )deck : Osho Zen TarotReading : When one choose this card, it means that there is a crystal clarity available right now, detached, rooted in the deep stillness that lies at the core of your being.Today is a rather boring day.....Wake up early so that i will not be late for my lesson, but the first lesson really make me sick from top to bottom. Cannot

2005-09-15T23:06:00.000+08:00

DISCRETE MATHEMATICS EXAM.......it is a easy paper but i notice a lot of careless mistake after the exam ended....such bad luck again....another prayer again... hope that i will do well even though i have lots of mistake here and there everywhere... hee hee...no mood to laugh aymore.... make lots of mistake how?????mistake for every paper... Internet Application.... Digital Eletronics..... C

2005-09-14T19:06:00.000+08:00

C PROGRAMMING EXAM.......!!!!!the paper is okay not too bad.... but after the paper then i notice a lot of my mistake... crap... damn... but what is over is over can't do anything to it .... haiz... nevermind.... hope that i will do well that is enough.... haiz...

2005-09-13T22:55:00.000+08:00

Back home again....YEAH!!!! data comm cancel...post-poned...watever.... but it is a good thing... hee hee...me lazy-boned.... haizHaHaHaHaHaHa.......

2005-09-12T22:47:00.000+08:00

finally back home... phew.... but have a bad night... as my pillow is gone... haiz.... when can i be with my pillow again... i like sleeping so much... i want my favourite sleep back to normal again......

2005-09-11T19:39:00.000+08:00

went to c pro sup tutorial.... sianz... to tired fell asleep again.....sianz....crap.....damn....went to my new house again.... tomorrow maintencee for air-con for new house.... sianz...take taxi to so far juz to maintence of air- con....sianz....

2005-09-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

Acrhery on Saturday... what a day... tired and tired and tired...... i think today i am down with luck... string are difficult to pull.... muscle ache after that... sianz....i think the tension is too high... damn.... maybe i should take it easy but i don think i can... need to correct some habit before that most likely....most of the arrows flew off course today... what luck... nvm.. nxt will be

2005-07-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

todae is a weird dae... i actually plan to go home to rest straight after school... in the i ended up goin out with one bunch of my classmate to Plaza Singapura... they went to the aracade to play the drum mania game (i think that is wat they call... i mean the game) they are in a quite lots of fun but i don know why...? after that went to eat lunch finally... when to Mos Burger to have lunch..

2005-07-06T17:48:00.000+08:00

today is a very very boring day......data comm lab is daunting..... it is a torture attending the lesson..... the lecture today quite good to us... give us 25 minutes break....that FOOAS didn't appear today??? he seems to disappear today...tell us go ELP but didn't appear himself... ?... then while waiting we crowded around one table and played murder... again!!! then we went food junction to get

2005-06-28T20:13:00.000+08:00

my cough is worst compare with yesterday... i got a bit of flu too... is this bad luck or?.... don know.... haiz.... ya i forgot... i bought Shawn's and Karen's Birthday present yesterday... although it cost me a fortune... but i really hope they like it.... (they are always my gurdian angel for the past two and a half years so i really hope they will have a very very happy and joyful birthday...

2005-06-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

Back to School again... but i am really sick... how?.... cannot go swimming with all my classmate...Sad..... drank some cough syrup and fall asleep for a long long time.... haiz..... miss a lot of stuff today... personal delevopment grp proj haven finish...... haiz.... don know wat will happen to me...... Mr. Fighting... Cool...

2005-06-26T20:06:00.000+08:00

i feel sick today... i got sick striaght after tthe trip to sentosa... sad sad... Today i still go to work... During work i feel terribly awful... *cough**cough*... *crys*....

2005-06-25T23:02:00.000+08:00

today is a very happening day.... me, winson, bernard, jason, shilei,and more..... we went to Sentosa.... PalaWan Beach... Everything seems to happen in a flash... happiness always dosen't last... we played beach volley...and i was drag into the water... then suntanning.... sandy beaches is so cool.... hee hee... After that we went to eat at Bk... But when i went home i found that i was roasted..

2005-06-24T21:41:00.000+08:00

Initial D...... the movie is nice... even though the storyline is not very good... the car's stunt done in the movie is great it is a very cool movie... those who is interested can take a look.... Casting... Jay Chou,Edison Chen,Shawn Yue,Gordan Chen and more.....the scene is beautiful..... I give it 4 star out of 5.... Cool......

2005-06-23T20:06:00.000+08:00

today early in the morning Digital Electronic... we connected a very complicated circuit... we got all confused..... but after that it is ok le.... Then in the maths lesson... it is 5 minutes before lesson ends... Dickson let us off except Jin Yi... hee hee... everyone can go i will explain to you alone for the next 5 minutes...Then D.E. e learning period.... the class started the "FOCUS" thingie

2005-06-20T21:42:00.000+08:00

hee hee.... today is a funny day...early in the morning geng guan when to buy ice cr eam and then he was playing it like nobody's business.... and his last reaction of cold was hilarous nobody can act it out... cool.... then after personal delevlopment.... jin yi when to buy the ice cream also... and he was playing with it too......... oh ny god.... lastest craze... hip hop jelly ice cream.....

2005-06-14T23:55:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring day..... the foriegn body dance audition is really really tiring... it is not very difficult but it have the 'level' there....especially the body wave thingie... my whole back is aching now... the rest is ok.... but the tempo is very fast... first few time very hard to catch the tempo... when is jia yi's turn, she just keep laughing all the way... melvin move is a bit messy but

2005-06-09T22:03:00.000+08:00

today everyone seems so dead... lots got sick... today's club crawl very noisy and crowed.... i joining band again... not new stuff... quite boring..... saw pei yi,ling yue and hui min in the nyp band... they will be quite suprise to see me again i hope?back to the basic agin.... don know what to do.....i am lost....

2005-06-07T19:43:00.000+08:00

finally manage to change my blog skin... phew.....

2005-06-02T22:36:00.000+08:00

today the digital electronics lab teachers her english cannot make it one.... her english i think worst than mine..... 'bear' become 'beer'..... my god she is so long winded too.... then the maths lesson is even worst the lecturer like never use computer before... [huh? the computer very slow? cannot log in? cannot be what?] of course slow... everyone logged in the same time computer lag like

2005-01-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

*cry*.... i lost my specs in the bus today..... i cannot wear my lens either... my eyes hurt... *coughing*... hell..... today is such a bad day today... first day at work at Anne Kelly & YenMan today... today everything seems very blur to me... no specs... no lens

2005-01-24T21:31:00.000+08:00

today... go interview... a bit lost... don know how to go there... first time go holland village there.... then when to centrepoint to find Bernard,Choon Long and Jing Hao eat lunch... they so funny... laugh my heads off today... they went to record a vedio on Bernard's empty cup with rubbish in it... weird... then went borders read books for about 3 and a half hours... watch Elektra at Lido then

2005-01-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

today last day at robinsons... a bit sad..... still good memory is better then bad ones...i have a good 23 days in robinsons... know new friends... everyone is quite good hope we can still meet each other some days...

2004-12-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

wish everybody good luck! especially shawn and my friends....

2004-12-17T16:11:00.000+08:00

good luck to everybody and hope everyone can be happy again.....

2004-12-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

ms ho you will always be in our heart no matter what..... god bless....

2004-12-13T20:11:00.000+08:00

todae ........... sad...................ms ho.................. you will always be in our heart forever................

2004-12-10T10:00:00.000+08:00

we're at NP block 40playing my buddy's laptop. hahax.

2004-10-27T16:09:00.000+08:00

good luck to all..... for tomorrow biology practical paper......

2004-10-24T19:59:00.000+08:00

today i am happy.... like fluttering butterflies... even though today's weather did not seems quite good.... i feel like i am fluttering in the sun like dancing.... hee hee

2004-10-23T21:41:00.000+08:00

hee hee... today i went to malaysia for a shopping trip...i bought a bag,a dress,hair thingie,cosmetics............. and went there to eat lots of stuff....... hee hee... today feel so good........ i better keep it up.............. talk to shawn for two hours again hee hee... we are friends.... shawn is being pester by two bugger who keeps on buzzing in her ears.... i hopre that they will be

2004-10-22T19:38:00.000+08:00

Boring............ today's physics lesson is really boring............ DANCING IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!! HIP-HOP FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! shawn and i was late today.... actually we can be on time but we ... hee hee you know......

2004-10-21T22:31:00.000+08:00

*crying* i cannot finish the paper today... and my reading and observation sux....... today's paper i am dead.....hee hee... dancing is still the best thing ever............

2004-10-20T21:51:00.000+08:00

tomorrow chemistry practical.... even that i am quite ok with it... but i am still scared that i will do something wrong..... i am scared that i will fail it... i am scared that my readings is wrong, my observation is wrong... i am scared that i cannot finish the paper.... omg.... is getting even more scary every minutes...............

2004-10-19T19:03:00.000+08:00

hey! today i found a temporary medicine for the poison in me.... DANCE!!! i think that dancing help me to control the sadness in me... when i am dancing i feel that i do not need to think about anything else that bothers me..... when i am dancing i feel happy ang also i can release stress,worries,sadness,fear and forget about studies... hee hee... i foung out that shawn like dancing too and also

2004-10-18T19:53:00.000+08:00

although today i feel slightly happy... but i does not last long... then i found out that happiness did not last long in me at all... when this happen ... i really have no idea... i really need to find the andidote soon or else i will die of sadness poison..... now is like i am at the point where the poison is acting almost every moment.....

2004-10-17T21:45:00.000+08:00

maybe dark is my weak point.... i always like the bright morning..... but i like to look at the night sky too but why ............ why this fear of darkness have to come to me.... now even though i still like the night sky a lot ... i have to find someone to be at my side as whem complete darkness falls upon me i think i will scream out all my soul... i am scared... but even so i still will not

2004-10-16T23:58:00.000+08:00

why is the angel of the dark keep haunting me......? why must she made me fear the dark......? WHY?

2004-10-15T20:50:00.000+08:00

today is graduation day for us... i seems to be happy on the outside but still scared and depress in the inside... i am touched by the words the teachers said to us... i don know if i will be sad leaving the school.... i really don know... sad memories and a lot of things that have happen.... i really don know....

2004-10-14T22:26:00.000+08:00

friends? family? care? concern? why are you when i need ?...... why am i having the feeling ? why? why? why? can someone answer me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-10-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

today i feel a bit better but still scared of sleeping in the dark..... the night seems to be getting more errie by the days.... what have gotten into me... i am not sure of me ... myself.... am i getting crazy.... or am i getting mad???

2004-10-12T18:19:00.000+08:00

i still cannot stop feeling sad!!!!

2004-10-11T18:13:00.000+08:00

i really need the feeling of being needed again...... now i am only left with an empty shell.... this few night... i cannot sleep... i am scared... til i cry.... how? i cut myself to distract the fear but pain can only last for a while.... CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-10-10T18:06:00.000+08:00

i still feel sad...... i felt that i am left out... i felt that my friends doesnt need me any more... as the exams is round the corner...... i don know i only know that i feel abandon by everyone around me.... am i so bad or everyone around me look down on me????

2004-10-09T17:45:00.000+08:00

i feel lonely..... and extreme sadness.....

2004-10-08T23:19:00.000+08:00

my nightmare from the past is back again to haunt me... i am trying to control myself but i can't.... i am trying very hard not to hurt myself and don stress myself up by thinking so much about it..... but the fear have already take over me mentally and physically.... i am scared of the feeling of being left alone... now i am really scared when i am alone in the dark... i feel that no one

2004-10-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

today i am soooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!! today is my birthday!!! shawn treated me to seoul garden with karen and clement...... happy birthday to me!!!!

2004-09-06T19:15:00.000+08:00

sorry..... i have finally put up a post at spellbound....take a look it is a love magic and also can be eaten... go have a try.... and also i have update a bit on the others of my blog...... sorry for waiting..... sign~ practical result for prelim not very good..... chemistry - 37/40 biology - 17/40 physics - 18/30 don know how!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! take

2004-06-20T16:44:00.000+08:00

hee hee ... todae roaming the shoppin centre at tampines kind of borin but still enjoy it.....shawn so good went water sking.... now bored... at home day dreaming all day long is killing me.....

2004-06-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

todae bio re-exam..... see him at the test... damn it... why must he always appear when i need concentration the most.... todae is terrible... i hate this... when will he get of of my mind... when can i be out of this storm.... when can i be happy once more... the question of the test is horrible... i think i am a goner already.... T.T...

2004-06-17T21:47:00.000+08:00

lesson and lesson i am getting bored wat the hell must we everyday go back to school .........

2004-06-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

sorry for your long waiting.... i will be updating this soon.... pls wait... i am very sorry ....... ^_^....

2004-05-16T13:05:00.000+08:00

16.05.04 still have three more paper to go to the end of exams..... a.maths and physics.... hope shawn won be sad anymore rhere is still somebody around to care about you.... like me and pbc isn it......

2004-05-12T16:33:00.000+08:00

12.05.04 Wednesday Biology paper!!! i screwed todae's paper it totally sux.... althought most of them come from the ten-year series.... especially paper 2 it is a killer..... wat the hell!!!! all the question on plants really killed me.... and wat the hell is the differences continuous and discontinuous variation..... never mind... wat is over is over......

2004-05-07T19:32:00.000+08:00

today's paper i think it is average.... not too hard and not too difficult... but hope that i can do well.... especially english,humanities,maths...... exams..... stress.......... wat the hell............... shawn!!!!! call me to go pierce my ear......... wat the hell even it is not pain........ but wat if my mother found out........ hmmmmmmm............ never mind.........

2004-05-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

Always on My Mind I didn't know until I lost you The love we shared, the sweetest memories; I'll keep it safe so that you'll be free Hold back the tears. Keep it inside You told me so if you should ever go Matter of time true love will be unfold And every word it fills my mind And your smile it lingers, it's just not getting easy I just couldn't find a way to make it better I miss you so

2004-04-29T19:09:00.000+08:00

Health check up: 28.04.04 today is actually a little lesson day.... got health checkup.... the nurse got problem..... say take out spects... that put back again lame.... i cannot see ... she know one lorz... take out put on again she lamemo........ slam dunk rule ....... it is really cool....... hope that it is not too late for me to start revising now ....... i hope that i could get good result

2004-04-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

boring...... wat a boring dae went to two grandmother house went there only eat and do nothing else... sian..... nobody near my age there is no one i can chat to.... worse.... my cousins very naughty they are too small to play with me....sian..... shawn.... ge ge.... where are you..... i am goin crazy with a bunch of kids with me... HELP!!!!!!!!!!!

2004-04-20T16:46:00.000+08:00

Tiring day.... today it should be a day of lots of sweat but it seems the other way.... we didnt sweat a bit..... today we should have mass run and p.e...... and yesterday run have cause great aching........ especially my legs.. argh...... I WANT COMICS!!!!!!!!!! SHAWN!!!!!!!!! today actually quite good.... because never get scolding....... hee hee.... every time see him pass me he say hello but

2004-04-20T00:06:00.000+08:00

NAFA 2.4km today's run sucks ....... i nearly failed...... i keep jogging and never stop..... damned it.... my musle on my right leg seem to be very tight....it hurts.... i think i have not strech well.... idiot me....... very tired.... no mood to do my homework..... but still need to do.... today saw him at the finishing point.... feel so sad... as the next thing i see is the bridge that we

2004-04-19T23:33:00.000+08:00

the day: at the dark patch of the park, beautiful fireworks have been lighted up, the glowing heart on the ground, has touched my inner soul, happiness overwhelmed me, the scene is never forgotten, with hands tight together, we cross the bridge that connect our hearts together, under the warm of the moon-light, the pond seems to portray our beautiful night, the path with flowers blooming, lead